I need more friends....

I need more friends....

I need more friends....

I need more friends....

I need more friends....

just leave me alone..~

Fustrated...!!!!... i juz so fustrated...~

bored...... sick.. mind juz squashed.. in the puddle.. of .. mud..~!

it was ... a .. bloody wk.....

a wk that.. its .. full of internal politics.. a wk that .. its full of .. unhappy events....

hypocrite.. back stabber.... all .. juz ..rounded.. up..~.. they are juz bastards....


n my nose.. is getting worse.. n worse..~.... juz pray .. tat.. nx.. yr.. my nose.. doens't need..to go for an operation..~....

im juz sick.. of it...~

i want.. to relaz.. i want to ..vent .. all the anger.. out.~...

juz... feel like have someone..to talk .. to..~...

all this bloody .. things..juz ...burst.. inside.. my mind..~

y .. is life.. juz so torturing..~...

or i am too sissy ..?..

U are not in the shoes... of me..~.. n bloody .. shutz.. the ..nonsense.. up..~.....

Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows......

If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you,
And share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own,
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
Are impossible for me
I cannot build a mountain,
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there



Many people will walk in and out of your life,but only true friends will leavefootprints in your heart....

that is the ironic of life~

if to conclude the events of the year .. its much of a more adventurous year..

if to say that i have change throughout year by year.... i didnt change much this year compare to the previous year..~

my life is still hanging in a mid-point..~.. i didnt even had a break through within myself..~

if times prove that a person grows as year pass by ... i will say that comparing the past yrs and last year.. it prove to be a challenge to me..~.... a challenge that prove me to a higher stages in life...

actuall adding up to the events this year.. there .. no much .. event to be concluded..~..... but.. if u link up ... all the events.. u will have realize that.. 1 yr.. is going to pass..~

it alwys.. seems that.. i am competing.. with times.. in my life..~... is i kiasu .. or wat..~.. i nv like the .. feeling of lefting out.. behind.. time..~.. people may say i do things.. in a rush..i .. too ... minded bout all things.. but.. this is the .. way .. n tempo.. tat.. i live.. with n do .. things .. its the ..philosophy of .. my life..~

if added the events.. that happen this years.. i will say its a year where people learn hw to build out mutual respects ..... if time is a factor that will prove everything... in my life i hope it will guide me to a better life..~

things no longer matter ... to me..~.. i have learn precious things and events tat i cherish it...

there is no point emphasised if it lay down deep in ur heart...~

Zuo.. Ren.. Shld noe its own values.. in life~... n dun take things for granted..~....

i noe tat im not a saint.. but i help tat a helping hand could brought out happiness in life..~

i won be wish to be peddle stone in a person life..~.... i wish to be a smoothly laid red carpet... that lead... people to the happiness...


u guys out there shld learn .. b4.. crictising people..~.....

cong has walk out ........ n to the higher note ...... a future is bless in its endeavors.. with a pairs of wings that enable cong to fly higher..~.... n i noe it has out limit it self...


if in life.. its full of competetition .. it is juz mean to change u better..~...only be competing u noe hw far u r...~

totally exhausted after coming back so late..~....

but yet...it still too tired for me.. to slp... a whirl inside my mind..~....

when u see the lyrics of the song.. u will wish tat.. u can express... out... all ur anger or tots that decribe bout ur past life..~.. u juz .. feel like.. venting it out within .. seconds.. of.. enjoyable..~ the adrenaline running in ur veins..~... but somehw i juz... wont burst it out..~

in my life~... i will hold back.. abit..~... on the things i do and the thinking of mine..~

so fast ..this..year.. gonna end.. soon..~.. it seems.. tat.. i haven got.. enuff.. out of it..~

kbox.. is enjoyable..~........


it might be had to conclude.... wat are the things.. that.. happened so much in .. love..~... but i juz wanted to say


when love holds tightly .. both together..~
it proves tat.. hw much ..it means to each other..~

a fated destiny... doesnt appear..much .. in a lifetime.~

dont becoz of love n lost ur temper...~.. as this two things.. shld.... nv.. be addded as picture..

having bad temper doesnt.. show.. tat.. u love the person more..~.... this is wat i felt..~

juz feeling to use the ..formula of economic

The Law of Demand and Supply

one of the rule shld be apply in love

n that its... Demand= Supply

when.. both interpoint each other..~..

it means.. u all have reach the mid point of love..~

n it shld.. be.. good enuff..~.. neutral for both guys..

coz love ..... shld be ... juz part of ur life.. and.. shld not occupied.. the whole of ur life..~

nite..~...

maybe i am correct.. or wrong..~... this is wat i felt.. ya..~


hmmm.. it maybe.. one of the topic.. tat.. wont get out of my mind ba..~
it seems there is nobody tat can throw love aside..~.. coz ev need .. love..ya?...


yawnz..~~~

finally after 2 wks... 2 wks of mental torture.. my headache .. started to drop tremendously.. i noe.. wat.. it coz.. my headahce.. le..~.. hur hur.. n my bp is.. fine..~.. so .. hope it continue.. on...~.. 19 yrs in.. my life.. this is the first.. time.. my nose.. was in such a critical.. condition.. Sinus.. Infection..~... u all may not noe.. wat it is .. but.. it is a serious.. thing..~.. hmm .. today i have a half..day ..off..~.... so i go find .. they all..~.. go walk walk...~


suddenly .. i felt.. tat.. my mind lighten.. so much in .. 1 day .. not .. tat.. my headache lighten.. but..i don .. have so much things.. kept in my mind..~

y... kept.. so much things..in mind..?.. why ..?... throw them aside.... why muz weight every things.. in mind.. ~.. juz .. throw it... awy ...~..

juz Fuck .. the way out of it..~.. n fuck my way out.. of.. SAF... ( Serve And Fuck) ...OFF..~!... haha......

*abit vulgar... but paisehz..la..~.. seriously its.. not.. becoz.. of army .. i become.. so .. vulgar..~.. let me.. release..some stress..*winks*

wat love.?.. y .. all.. people.. talking.. bout it..~.. love.. is.. juz .. nothing..it.. juz a.. illusion.. it.. juz.. something.. tat..~.. either.. u can.. cherish it.. or.. u cant..~....

y .. .. kept.. urself.. in the bordom.. of love..~?

y..... trap urself.. ~.. in love..?.. when.. every .. thing.. doenst.. have an ans.. everything.. doesnt .. need.. a explaination...?...


juz throw it behind..la..~... love.. juz .. Sux..~!.... love..is... nothing..~.. when .. u believe.. that .. u can .. survive .. on ur own..~..

*couples.. don think .. tat.. love.. .. can be.. eternity ..~.. coz... when .. both dies..~.. the love..is gone..lol..~...

OH MIND OH MIND.. JUZ .. throw.. ev thing aside..~.. enjoy urself..~... control.. ur temper.. b4.. it rise again..~..

.... mUz.. be optimistic.. to get urself.. out of depression..~..

one tat walk.. without ... guilt.. is the one tat is most happy in the world..~..

coz... u noe that u cherish ev moments.. in life~.......


Unleash urself.. RElaz..... ~...

nitez..~...

~ n o t i c e~

sorry to u guys if my face are black and fierce.. or .. the way i talk is harsh....
i not feeling well ... i having a chronicle headache.....

pls bear with it..~....

i am fine... ~.. i juz don feel like talking...
coz i am getting tense.... easily
i juz hope to give myself ample rest to my mind..~

gd nitez

hmmm this wk.. ?

nothing to say much bout this wk..~ im out of the camp.. going home.. ev day for the pass one wk..~....

hmmm..... in every aspect .. this ..is .. not an enjoyable.. wk..~.. alot of feelings.. alots of thinking..~.. disputes and issues.. was all around..~.. and my headache.. was.. haunting.. me... overall health wasnt that good..~... flu was back.. ev thing was back..~.. dia ask me a qns... when then i wont get sick..~.. n i told her..when the day im dead .. i wont get sick..le.~.... sometimes...its not the headache that cause the temper.. but.. it was force that surge up to mind..~.. that.. i suddenly .. lose.. my temper... n then headache..~....

ytd ... when taking mrt.. while talking..~.. i suddenly .. become.. breathless... n in the nite.. suddenly.... juz felt.. like vomit..~... n the pressure is juz around... my head... today .. was not .. better.. then ytd..~.... i feel sick for the whole day ..

will one day ..i will just.. collaspe.. n unconcious..?.... today .. went.... to my grandparents.. house..... then .. noe my grandpa.. got.. minor.. stroke.. in his.. face..~.. but i cant take.. my leave..yet.. or else.. i accompany.. him to ttsh... to find a specialist..~.....

sumtimes.. really .. don understand.. my uncle.. is he crazy .. or.. wat..~....his eccentric.. behaviour.. no one ..can understand.. him...~...... he didnt ..live along well with grandpa.. then.. for heaven sake.. juz leave that.. house...~.. u are damm.. rich .. n u are not poor..~..

n 2 olds one.. leave in a 4-room flat..~.. muz.. well.. sell awy.. the hse.. n.. leave.. with my auntie.... some time don really understand.. my grandma.. thinking..~...

sell awy the hse... move to ... my aunt... new.. hse... a 4-storey hse..... cant accomadate 2 people..?.. can rite?.. there maid.. n my aunt to accompany them.. my cousin is all there..~.. they can.. juz enjoy .. there..~.. or.. if not.. move.. to my other.. aunt hse.. or wat..~.. wat is there to worried.. so much..~.. finacially .. or .. wat..~.. it is not .. an aspect of the problem..~....

y .. the old people.. are so stubborn.. juz enjoy..~.. n let my aunt.. all that.. settle.. the rest of the problem..~..

things really aint the same anymore..~...
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hmmmmm.... see dia blog..?.. let me ans.. the qns again..haha..

What Is a Perfect Relationship


a perfect relationship.. is you love the person.. for who they are....~.... or.. change her to a better person.. the world is changing .. so do u .. ~ no one is perfect in this world... but at least .. change each other to a better person.... both live and ... build the future together..~... the united in one heart.. n the trust .. im sure if u are truly in love..~.. no one can seperate.. both of u ...

How Possessive is Possessive?

i don believe in possesive..even .. if yes..~.. possessive in the sense.. that.. u love her .. very much..~.... but.. not to the extend... without her u cant.. leave.. coz.. u cant.. be .. living dependent.. on a person..~.. if... the person.. is gone.. means.. ur world..is oso gone..~....

i don believe.. being possessive.. can kept ur .. love one.. though i don have a relationship..~.. i felt.. tat.. a .. relationship.. muz.. be.. build on trust..~....

its as simple as tat.. if she is urs.. she will run awy.. if.. she is not urs.. how possesive.. she.. will ..leave u in the end..~...

its a thing btw 2 person..~.... if .. u hold.. a relationship.... n.. felt tat it has a future.. then... both shld have total trust..~... total trust means there no doubt in the person..~... this is hw 2 heart interlink together..~........

so i seriously don believe in possesive.. or restrict the doing of that person..~..


quarrel may be part of relationship.. but even there .. is no quarrel.. it could..oso.. build a better relationship......

swt memories.. is.. juz.. something.. tat.. give u a smile.. when is being think back... but one shld enjoy each n every moment..~.. that will lead to a better understanding of the person..~

i will feel.. guilty .. if a mistake.. is being made..~.. i noe.. it will leave.. a scar in the person heart...~.. but.... i nv.. intend. to broke a person heart.. .. i treat ev thing... with trust..~.. n i hope each n everyone of u do..~....

that is my wish..~.... im afraid of losing alot.. of thing.. in life.. but .. i know.. one is lost.. u still have to carry on moving..~but..... at least.... move in ur life without guilt... knowing tat.. even u broken the heart.. of the person... u still treat her.. to the .. best.... n be there ... for her ani momentz..... so even if one day .. she leave u ... u wont feel guilt or sad..~....

till today ev thing juz passes me... swiftly.. i believe.. one day ... i will .. find the person .... tat belongs to me..~....

i will make sure.. she will be happy...

if i cant make.. her feel secure.. i will let her feel secure with my love..~

who can sense the unhappiness in me this few days...

who got ask me..~.. or think bout.. it..~

sumtimes i juz like nv existed in this world..~

but y?.... sometime i really wish to ask heaven...

y my life is full of waves...

who bother bout it..

did heaven.. treated.. fairly.. but.. i didnt.. cherish it..

or the heaven is juz so unfair..~

where is the past days..~... ?......

the fallen regime and.. the starting of the nx era

...

im alwys understanding..~.. alwys..~...

juz .... feeling to write something..~..

no one will really understand....~....

who can sense the unhappiness in me this few days...

who got ask me..~.. or think bout.. it..~

sumtimes i juz like nv existed in this world..~

but y?.... sometime i really wish to ask heaven...

y my life is full of waves...

who bother bout it..

did heaven.. treated.. fairly.. but.. i didnt.. cherish it..

or the heaven is juz so unfair..~

where is the past days..~... ?......

the fallen regime and.. the starting of the nx era

...

im alwys understanding..~.. alwys..~...

juz .... feeling to write something..~..

no one will really understand....~....

wat the world has become...~...


don judge a person by its cover...

don ever take things.. for granted

coz. thing..is never.. the same..~

no one... can forsee the future... only u urself..~

nth is a fairy tale story.. nothing..is.. everlasting..~


juz being trap in the edifice of blocks..~.......